made up my mind.

1st decision:

aku nak beli keta yg aku mmg suke sejak azali (kunun mcm cinta sejati arr)~ no one can stop me~

suzuki swift. (bkn yg sport punye, yg biasa punye je)

janji aku puas hati. insyaAllah

haa.. tuh yg 1st..

the 2nd decision:

- aku dah set appointment. aku check gigi esok. scaling + buat apa yg patut. janji aku puas hati. titik. (kunun tegas arr tuh. hahaha)

the 3rd decision:

- aku nak kahwin cepat. tensen arr ada lonely working life mcm nih. nak ada 'kwn' bercerita + someone to rely on masa susah senang. you can't rely on friends all the time. after all, friends come n go. lama-lama sume settle down, tinggal kita sorg-sorg je. wohoo.. aku takleh gitu. kang aku jd antisocial. so mari sama-sama berdoa.. amin..

*part nih KIV. anyone who read this, tlg doakan saya. doa-doa anda saya amat hargai. tq :)*

(entry kali nih betul-betul meluahkan dari hati yg serabut. haha)

-CH-

focus n axis

assalamualaikum n a very good morning, n should i say.. a happy new year arr to all of us..

actually i don't really like to celebrate those kind of things arr.. it's just that i love to watch fireworks~ hahaha.. :P

some of us will look back into what we did in the past, n how to deal with them in the future. yep. i think it's a wise thing to ponder (but please complete the resolutions, ppl! huhu) since we, human beings, do make mistakes in life n we aren't that perfect after all.

some of us will be happy coz their 2009 resolutions had been fulfilled, so congrats n keep it up :)

but some of us will still sigh n think they should improve. then all the best to you guys :)

**

i find it's hard for me to find my current purpose in life. it's like i'm LOST my focus (my objectives) n axis (where i stand my principles n beliefs) recently. i used to be very determined n will finish what i'll start from the beginning. but now i feel stupid, useless, dumb, clueless, naive to the max, prone to be harmed, weak (yeah i hate this word. it pisses me off) n needy. in fact i'm alone n have to survive myself.

yes, need moral support from others. i tried to talk to ppl but failed, as usual. i'm a bad pourer after all. they didn't get my messages. :

so, this is my 2010 resolution:

I WANT TO FIND MYSELF BACK, n UPGRADE INTO A BRANDY, SAVVY, SOPHISTICATED NEW VERSION OF ME~

ya Allah, pls grant my wishes. amin.

happy new year 2010 everyone ;)

end-of-year-2009

yep yep. today is saturday. dec the 26th. reminded us a lot about the catastrophe that happened 5 yrs ago right? let's pray that it won't happen.. should it happen, let's pray that we're all prepared for that. amin..





career

this week, my life turned to 'boring state' as our officer has come back from his vacation. in a way that i felt like "gile kekok arr!". the rest of the story, let's keep it to myself. next week, another officer will come back from her MC. which is a good thing, of course. but the not-so-good thing: "aku kekok lagi!! dah 5 minggu baru lapor diri kat pegawai atasan.. what the.. huhu.."



p/s: i felt like carrying a burden when officers in OPD expect me to the highest, but now i feel like underestimated when the male officer taught me everything as if i never work in a satellite pharmacy before.. "shidah.. tau tak nak buat blablabla mcm mana?" like i'm stupid or things like that (but i've been working there for 5 WEEKS arr man! i did everything that i can do under my limited authority level when they weren't even there!! eeeee.. geramnye aku.. aku tahu arr apa aku nak buat.. cis!)



p/s II: kdg-kdg aku rasa pelik bila berckp dgn pegawai tersebut. psl tuh kot aku lari ke blkg berkepit dgn pembantu farmasi je. nak elakkan kontroversi. haha


n for weekend, i'm working as on-call PRP at methadone pharmacy with my super-super-super senior, en.naza. encik arr konon. mula-mula ber'encik', 'awak'.. last-last 'ko-aku' je. rupanye en.naza itu geng-geng pijon! ceit.. sabo jelah. but i was happy to hear stories about UKM pantun peeps (the details about FESTKUM 2009). yeah.. iejan, kay, khalis n another one (sorry tak igt nama ko), you've made it! congrats! ;)



**



leisure

i met misah n her colleageues (PPUKM PRPs) at Le Meridien Hotel last saturday. i went there with my FRP (cik arafah.. even though she insisted to call her 'akak'.. huhu) for a talk by a very famous professor (err.. i dunno.. coz i'm new in this field.. sorry ^.^v). hehe. felt like wanna see her again. n again. n again. n other friends too..



Rx peeps, bila nak buat gathering?? :)



n i feel like:



- buying a new perfume for me n my mother (DONE)

- investing in TH (DONE)

- go out on a exquisite dinner with my family (IN PROGRESS)

- updating my not-so-deep knowledge with current guidelines/journals (IN PROGRESS)

- snap a lot of pics with my new colleagues in HKL (IN PROGRESS)

- asking someone/besties out (hehe)

- hang out or lepak-lepak with cendana peeps, old ones n new ones.. nak berkenalan dgn junior-junior baru (still thinking when i'll be free.. but i'll try to make it, insyaAllah)

- updating my resolutions for new year.. (just a lil' bit)



**



new year resolutions



looking at my past resolutions, hmm.. checking whether they're still valid or not:

1. grad dgn gembira: DONE! alhamdulillah :)
2. rajin mcm zaman dulu-dulu: hehe. ok arr. better. hehe :P
3. to be excel in clinical pharmacy: NOT YET. i'll never find out till my next clinical posting on March 2010. we'll wait n see. :)
4. kumpul duit: yep! IN PROGRESS :D
5. a very good significant half???: IN PROGRESS (hehehe.. part nih nak menggatal je. haha)
6. to be a better person?: YOU JUDGE. :)

2010/1431H resolutions?? i just pray for these 3 things:

1. diampunkan dosa aku n org-org di sisi aku (ibu bapa, adik-beradik, keluarga, guru-guru, kwn-kwn)
2. dipermudahkan urusan n dpt rezeki halal sehalal-halalnye (jgn mengeluh arr kalau kena keje lebih masa.. buat je.. redah je!)
3. dipermudahkan jumpe jodoh. eceh. eii.. aku dah leh cari apa! aku dah keje.. haha


n yours? looking fwd to read/hear about you guys.. happy end-of-2009 n new year of 2010~! ;)

love,

Chidah Hikki

p/s: aku ceria w/p kena keje smpi ahad minggu nih sbb aku dpt cuti straight khamis smpi ahad dpn.. kekeke :P

pulling the trigger

waffle tajaan cik ajlaa. sedap sgt.. sbb mkn bertiga.

misah n ajlaa, tq! ;)

dah lama aku tak kuar dgn ajlaa n misah. 2 insan yg dirindui. huhu. akhirnye dpt gak jumpe lps bbrp bulan konvo n dah keje (ke arah 'kahwin' je belum. keke). jd, kami bertemu janji di Suria KLCC utk menonton Avatar n mkn-mkn sambil 'gossip girl mode'.

Avatar

kisah nih mmg best. kire kununnye dlm citer tuh, in the future, human being in earth dah kekurgan sumber, baik yg semulajadi atau yg sintetik (ataupun sumber cari gali arr.. huhu). lps tuh diorg gi kat 1 planet nih.. Pandora kot. kat situ ada 1 kaum.. kaum Na'vi..

ada sorg bekas tentera marin yg kena reject.. lumpuh lak tuh.. nama dia Jake Sully.. dia pun dihantar ke planet Pandora nih utk teroka kehidupan kaum Na'vi kat situ. so.. ada sorg doc nih (Dr.Grace) bg dia 1 'avatar' (badan org Na'vi .. bdn klon arr.. gabungan DNA puak tuh dgn DNA manusia) supaya dia leh connect thru 1 device tuh.. no neurogically akan connect pd badan tuh n badan tuh yg akan pergi pd environment Pandora yg mmg manusia susah nak survive. kat situ Jake belajar utk adapt dgn kaum Na'vi, jatuh cinta, cintakan alam sekitar n sekeliling dia.. n menghargai sumber semulajadi yg ada kat planet tuh..

tp nnt ada konflik arr.. mmg best.. korg gi arr tgk.. ada moral value.. dijamin puas hati tgk.. tp nak nasihatkan, tgk tgh hari arr.. kalo gi tgk ptg takut nnt terlepas maghrib lak.. huhu :P

pulling the trigger

dlm erti kata seharian, maksudnye 'tarik picu pistol'. tp bila berkias spt Chidah Hikki, maksudnya 'meluahkan segalanye' n 'bersedia utk buat keputusan'. yep. aku telah membuat keputusan dlm hidup aku n disaksikan oleh cik ajlaa n cik misah. n ada 2 org lagi yg aku takkan sebut nama mereka, yg pasti mereka perempuan spt diriku.

misi 'membersihkan' sesuatu yg menjadi mende yg miserable dlm hidup aku telah lama berjalan, cuma aku tak ckp terang-terangan je. jd skrg aku ckp terang-terangan dlm kiasan, bahawasanye aku tamau dianggap apa yg org anggap kat aku n statusku selama ini. aku seorg perempuan yg bebas memilih sape-sape je yg dia nak. suke hati aku. aku percaya gerak hati aku kerana aku percaya Allah swt akan membimbing aku ke jalan yg benar. huhu. emo lak part nih.

tp yg pasti, sbg org perempuan, jgn biarkan nasib n status kita dikawal oleh org-org lain/org yg tak faham keadaan n perasaan kita. sbb Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yg kita nak n apa yg sesuai utk kita sbnrnye. berusaha utk lepaskan diri drpd kongkongan mental+emosi. set ourselves FREE. FREE of mental abuse.

akhir kata, yokatta! yatta~ alhamdulillah, officially i'm FREE of that 'charge'.

chidah, i can feel that +ve wave is within me~

salam.

-CH-

now i know why..

(ketika aku menaip mende alah nih, aku tgh study utk TDM = therapeutic drug monitoring)

akhirnye hbs gak attachment kat OPD. alhamdulillah. psl tuh aku raye aidiladha all-out smlm. kekeke. mmg cuti tak igt dunia arr. blk-blk, ngantuk gile.. terus tido. tp lps tuh mimpi tah hape-hape. tp kata ulama' dulu-dulu, mimpi yg tak baik//mengarut toksah citer kat org. so aku takyah citer arr apa mimpi tersebut.

skrg nih pun aku tgh duk pening pk nape penyata KWSP aku tak sampai ke postbox lagi, mcm mana nak handle shift 1 oncall (weekdays punye lg teruk kot), dari segi apa arr bekas mentor aku kat OPD nak assess aku minggu dpn nnt, bila aku nak amik cuti utk bln disember nih since aku nak jumpe misah + belanja junior + nak uruskan bil-bil broadband yg tertunggak, etc. argh life! i wish these are the only ones that are complicated in my life.

dari segi mental emosi pula, aku sentiasa berdoa pada Allah swt supaya biar arr serabut ayam mana pun hidup aku, jgn arr hati aku nih jiwa kacau. biar tenang-tenang saja. coz catastrophic things will happen if we don't control our emotions.

i mean, it's good to express yourself n let yourself heard, but do in moderation. we got our limits, n Allah sees us every single things we do/feel/mumble/etc. mmg best bila lepas geram, but then bukan kita je yg menerima kesannye, org lain, org keliling pun akan terasa. jadi berhati-hati arr di jalan raya. bukan nak salahkan sesiapa, sesiapa pun takkan salah dlm hal nih. cuma tamau org lain jd mangsa keadaan je. itu je.

(peringatan utk diri aku n sume org)

huhu. takpe arr. aku nak sambung study. ja~ mata ne~~ ;)

roller coaster

salam to all.. morning~
today my condition is getting better.. it's just that i rarely got this severe allergy reaction. the last 'severe' one was during my 1st year of study. huhu..

the story started like this:

thursday afternoon = got CPE from a 'new' pharmaceutical company.. then we got lunch together
thursday evening = got back home due to sudden itchiness all over my body
thursday nite = hooo.. the rashes (in the form of papules, i think) emerged! i was so scared but then i pretended to be like 'kejap je nih.. kejap je nih'

friday early morning = had breakfast (kuih only) with wawa n 2 pharm assistants from dermatology pharmacy, despite the fact that i was suffering that time. (haha ironic chidah i am~)

friday at 8.00 am = i couldn't stand anymore coz i started to stratch myself again, n hanie saw me, she 'berleter' to me (opss) n asked ketua unit's permission to bring me to A&E.

friday at 9.30 am = finally i got IM Piriton injection stat dose for my severe allergy. alhamdulillah.. that time i felt like crying (crying coz being grateful). haha sabar jelah. huhu. then got MC n quickly 'blah' from OPD. opsss.. i got leave on friday?? how about briefing regarding oncall??? [it's ok, i'll ask my colleagues later..]

friday at 12.00 noon = pack my things n got back home, then slept like i've never been sleeping all these years.

**

it's idiopathic. aku tak makan seafood pun khamis tuh. mcm mana aku leh kena allergy reaction nih? how sensitive. *sigh* takpe arr, hidup nih bagaikan roller coaster.

**

meanwhile..

* got 3x oncalls this december.
* kena marah sbb punch card org. fine. my fault.
* rasa mcm malas nak claim 'that invoice'. sbb aku akan rasa tak sedap hati kalau mereka-mereka yg berjanji pd aku melakukannye secara terpaksa. i'm not going to repeat the same mistakes. so aku akan anggap sume itu gurauan yg aku selalu buat n akan tutup kes terus arr. tq.
* sonok jumpe dayah + anis kat k1 hari tuh~ hrp-hrp ada masa lagi arr nak luangkan dgn adik-adikku ini.. sbb keje-keje nih pun masih rasa sunyi gak kdg-kdg. haha ngeks..

ok. nak rehat. happy weekend everyone~

tagged: suka-suka

erk.. baru skrg aku terperasan, adik Rx ku di UKM dulu (Ainul Nabihah) dah lama tag aku kat blognye.. b4 raya lagi kot. takpe arr, since skrg ada masa nak buat (byk sgt masa nak melagha.. hoho), aku buat je. :)

1) Nama timangan anda?
:: kat rumah = nama penuh je (rashidah)
:: kat sekolah, mtrk, U, kwn-kwn = chidah/kak chidah
:: kat alam maya = hikaru/hikki/cheese (tp nih dulu-dulu arr. skrg takde dah)
:: org-org yg tak rapat/tak tau eja nama saya = shidah, syidah, shida, blablabla (byk lg namanye)


2) Anda seorang yang...?
:: mencari keredhaanNya..
:: agak amik berat juge ttg hal mereka-mereka yg memerlukan w/p nmpk mcm tak amik kisah
:: boleh menolong org kalau ada masa arr..
:: tenang sepanjang masa (insyaAllah).. jarang hangin. tp kalau hangin, mmg hangin gile..


3) Insan yang teristimewa?
:: ibu saya. dia byk berkorban utk keluarga. :)
:: seisi keluarga
:: kwn-kwn rapat, n adik-adik juge
:: bakal suami. tp mslhnye, tak tau arr sape. hahaha.


4) Lagu kesukaan?
:: L'arc~en~ciel - Daybreak's Bell
:: Nami Tamaki - Reason
:: lagu-lagu rock kapak dulu-dulu
:: Sami Yusuf - Asma Allah


5) Makanan kesukaan anda?
:: nasi goreng pattaya kat kafe pentadbiran KMPk (smpi skrg terigt kesedapannye. huhuhu)
:: mihun tomyam kat kafe KTSN (k1), UKM KL (walau betapa cantik/buruk rupa mihun itu, tp ttp sedap bagiku.. ehe)
:: sushi.. tp tamau arr yg mentah tuh. suke sushi yg ada telur ikan, ada tuna/salmon, ada udang besar kat atas dia (w/p lps mkn tuh akan mengalami gatal-gatal muka), err.. byk lagi arr. mmg suke sushi. hehe
:: makanan berasaskan ayam. cth: nasi ayam, fried chicken, chicken chop, tomyam ayam, chicken burger, serunding ayam, err.. sumenye ayam arr. hehehe


6) Sikap yang membuatkan anda stress?
:: org byk sgt ckp.. terutamanye yg kuat membebel. w/p ckp diorg tuh mmg ada benarnye.. entah arr. tak suke.
:: org yg mempergunakan org lain (friends with benefits). cthnye.. kalau nak mntk tlg je contact bagai.., lps tuh nak keje diorg siap, lps keje diorg siap, buat-buat tak kenal je/lupe org yg menolong diorg/lupe b'day/lupe sume arr.. ala-ala lagu Aishah - Janji Manismu. gitu arr..
:: org lupa daratan/asal usul. ala-ala takbur gitu.
:: org ego/nak jaga air muka sendiri je.


7) Warna kegemaran anda?
:: ungu
:: maroon (merah hati)
:: putih
:: coklat


8) Benda yang mesti ada dalam beg?
:: h/p
:: wallet
:: penutup hidung+mulut (mesti ada.. huhu)
:: tisu

9) Kali terakhir anda menangis?
:: kalau menangis yg sgt teruk, itu dah lama dah.. bertahun lamanye. hehe

10) Tag untuk 6 rakan anda
:: adikku yg skrg berada pd thn akhir Rx = Nurul Hidayah Roslan
:: kwn baik saya dlm Rx 0509 = Anis Adilah Jamaludin
:: sahabat juge = Muhd Arif Shaffiq Sahrir
:: sahabat cendana n Rx n everything = Mohd 'Izzat Ismorning
:: kwnku yg sedang bekerja skrg = Khairani Abd Rahman
:: sahabat Rx yg akrab di alam siber = Asdayati Buang


;)

boring..

hahaha.. gile bosan arr.. erm, takpe. aku buat review citer-citer yg aku suke tgk akhir-akhir nih..

CANAAN

skrg masih on-going.. (episod 12) total episodes: 13. anime nih mengisahkan ttg sorg bdk perempuan (takde keterangan ttg identiti dia) berasal dari Timur Tengah (belah-belah arab gitu) yg diberi nama 'canaan' oleh trainer dia (sorg lelaki bernama Siam), n sejak kecik lg dia dilatih utk jd mercenary (cari sendiri makna dlm kamus ye. haha) + fighter.. lps tuh Canaan ada synthesia (kebolehan utk integrate sume pancaindera dia utk kesan pergerakan atau kehadiran seseorg.. n leh kesan org tuh musuh/kawan).

Canaan ada kwn baik, nama dia Maria. lps tuh mcm mana tah.. diorg terserempak dlm 1 siri pertemuan yg mengejutkan di mana kat tmpt tuh (somewhere in China ke Hong Kong, tak pasti), ada bbrp org bermaskot kucing leh mati bila buka topeng diorg, n then ada bbrp org terkena virus Ua (yg akan meninggalkan 'flower marks' n 'special mutation/superpower' pd org yg terkena virus tuh), etc..

n then, sorg bekas 'canaan' bernama Alphard pun memburu Canaan gak. jeng jeng jeng.. apakah yg akan berlaku? hehe.. tak sabar nak tgk episod akhir citer 'CANAAN' nih. hehehe

Surgeon Bong Dal-hee

aku jarang tgk citer korea, sbb aku memilih sket genre-genre citer yg aku nak tgk. tp citer kali nih betul-betul menarik perhatian aku. citer nih dah lama sbnrnye, tahun 2007 lagi. tp baru nak tayang kat 8tv kan.. takpe arr.. hahaha..

citer nih mengisahkan ttg Bong Dal-hee, seorg doktor baru yg menempuh mcm-mcm dugaan spjg dia nye 'housemanship' kat Hospital Universiti Korea. dah arr dia ada penyakit dia sendiri (ada mslh jantung), lps tuh preceptors dia kejam-kejam (standard arr kan..), lps tuh mcm-mcm kes arr dia kena tempuhi. lps tuh, (opsss.. sorry, nih spoiler sket. haha) -- aku rasa aku suke arr kalau Bong Dal-hee berchenta dgn doktor drpd bhgn bedah toraks (Dr. Ahn).. hahaha. korg tgk jelah ek.. kat 8tv. kalau tak pun, download arr kat mana-mana ke, cari DVD ke.. kekeke..

yg aku lg suke psl citer nih, citer nih mmg dedahkan sedikit sebyk ttg dunia perubatan.. lps tuh mengajar penonton-penontonnye ttg istilah-istilah perubatan n bbrp penyakit/sindrom yg org tak biasa dgr arr.. mcm FAP, Whipple's procedure, etc (yelah.. istilah yg org biasa tak tau.. kalo budak medic/farmasi/allied health mesti arr tau kan. hahaha). 4.5 out of 5 stars for this drama~!

..

erm, tuh jelah kot aku nye review ringkas. sedikit sebyk leh arr membuang rasa bosan aku di mlm hari nih. hehe. ciao~ wassalam :)

selamat pengantin baru farah n khalis~

pengantin baru atas pelamin biru.. hehe

ohaiyo.. n selamat menyambut isra' mikraj sume.. moga-moga kita dpt mengambil tauladan drpd peristiwa isra' mikraj n meneruskan usaha utk menjadi muslimin n muslimah yg sentiasa bertaqwa pd Allah swt n mengasihi Rasulullah saw.. amin~

haa.. entry kali nih psl 2nd Rx 0509 wedding.. puan nurul farehah othaman dgn suaminye encik muhammad khalis karim. berlangsung gi Kg. Kota, Pekan, Negeri Sembilan smlm.. minggu dpn belah laki lak. tp sorry arr, aku tak igt jalan ke dewan Kuala Pilah.. so surrender.. tak dpt gi.. haha (alasan je tuh.. pdhal dah pokai sbnrnye. hahaha!)

pd awalnye kami geng-geng KL nak konvoi sama-sama.. aku 1 keta, efa 1 keta, emi pun ada tanye-tanye kitorg nak gi bila, blablabla.. tp disbbkan bbrp perkara yg tak dpt disebutkan di sini, kami bertolak asing-asing.. nih kronologi kehadiran kwn-kwn:

- sabtu: juliana lim n siti fairuz bertolak lebih awal.. diorg bermlm kat rumah farah (kitorg mmg panggil farehah tuh farah)

- ahad awal-awal pagi: hsemate diorg, ida n iylia sampai

- kul 10.00++: deelyn sampai. ayah deelyn hantarkan sblm beliau blk kg jap. deelyn smpt join akad nikah

- kul 11.30++: geng aku (aku, adik aku, ainna, ain) baru smpi. masa tuh akad baru hbs. farah n husband dia tgh amik-amik gmbr kat hantaran.. tak lama kemudian, ieja n bakal tunang pun dtg gak.

- kul 12.00++: geng efa (efa, hana, nisa', fizan) smpi. mmg 'jejak kasihan' tul masa tuh.. huhu terharu. haha

- kul 12.20++: aznita izma (nutri batch 0509.. merangkap jiran tetangga aku masa kat k1.. 1 sekolah dgn farah) n kwnnye dtg. reunion geng k1 lak. keke

- kul 12.30++: masa nih dah nak gi berarak. lps tuh wawa n nizam (husband dia) baru smpi.. hehe

- kul 1.00++: liyana zainal (kak yana) n family dtg dari seremban. smpt jumpe kejap je. masa nih kitorg nak blk

- kul 1.15++: aini, diana n family smpi. abg alba lak dtg. terkejut gak aku. tp no wonder arr, sbb kota dgn tampin tuh dkt je. smpt arr kitorg sembang tepi jalan jap. haha

- kul 2.00++: helmi, bosan, cha, dgn alan smpi.

..yg selebihnye aku tak tau arr pulak dtg ke tak.. huhu

yg pasti, lps nih ada lg deretan kenduri kahwin Rx 0509 yg bakal menyusul.. nantikan~~

saya doakan sume kwn saya yg kahwin skrg (eh.. of course termasuk saya juge.. mesti arr nak doakan diri sendiri gak. keke) n lps nih murah rezeki, byk anak, n bahagia dunia akhirat~~ amin~

p/s: aku mmg kena jumpe kwn-kwn.. baru aku leh jd bising blk. haha

p/s 2: on the way blk KL singgah rumah hana kat bangi.. sonok gather sambil makan sate kajang.. keke

my current indulgences~ (part 2)

(i almost forgot that this blog is specially dedicated to reviews n delicacies rather than emotions.. actually the emo blog is on friendster.. huhu)

yep yep.. as for now, these are my current indulgences:

mangosteen, as for malaysians call the fruit manggis

(these fellas are called 'si hitam manis'..

i wonder why, instead i think they are the 'sweet purples'. hehe)

~

rambutan

(always my favourite.. especially when the flesh is taken out one by one, and keep the succulent part refrigerated before consuming them. kekeke)

pulasan (haa.. this one is rarely found, except if it's fresh from the orchard..

it tastes sweeter n the fruit is smoother than rambutan

yep yep.. the outer layer is thicker.. you have to twist the outer layer to open it)

..and this one.. i'm not sure i can watch it or not, but i'm working on it.. haha (currently broke.. lol):

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

..actually i'm being down lately.. but, never mind. i guess i have to forget it all n let it go kot. sometimes it's fated n He created these tests/predicaments to let us all know whether the human-to-human relationships are strong enough to be blessed by Him or it's never meant to be, just kind of.. swept away after all these years maybe.. err, i mean.. in friendships n family kind of thing.. ok la, other relationships as well. yep, it's not for me to decide. but if the worst ever come, i have to be prepared as well, rite?

ok.. i have to continue taking my usual medications~ till then, ja~

my current indulgences~

i've decided to stay at home till my posting time~ (lantak arr takde duit pun.. haha)








in the meantime, these are my current indulgences..





**

durians!

(haha.. alhamdulillah, i've ended my 'pantang phase'.

so, can eat durian! hehe)

ice creams galore~

(err.. sbnrnye takde arr aku makan sume warna mcm nih..

nih saje je buat gmbr hiasan.. hehe)

Eden of The East (image courtesy of GetFansub.com)
simple plot with a lil' bit of mystery.

left: Morimi Saki; right: Takizawa Akira
(the one with the mysterious identity, erased memories, n untold secret about the handphone which contains 10 million yen *am i right?* credited on it for a secret mission, n the mystery unveiled here)

**yea, n i just love mysterious heroes. haha**

chidah is gundam-ing again! hehe

this is Gundam Wing (1995)

the pilots (as in Gundam 00 - meisters) are:

Heero Yuy, Duo Maxwell, Quatre Winner, Trowa Barton n Wufei

(again.. Heero Yuy is the mysterious guy with NO identity at all.. haha)

but this Gundam series is more focused on colony development in space n false millitary admin on Earth

(while Gundam SEED: genetic war; Gundam 00: solar energy n Innovator)

and Heero's heroine, Relena Peacecraft.. reminds me a lot of Marina Ismail in Gundam oo

(but this heroine is bolder n more headstrong. haha)

finally.. last but not least: Ghost Hunt

(baru skrg nak tgk. haha)

investigations by this team of psychics and exorcists (except Mai Taniyama.. the one in the high school uniform.. she's Naru's assistant * Naru is the guy with black outfit*)

enjoyable.. n i've learned a lot about those supernatural things. hehe

n also, not to forget, this band:

"AMAL ISLAM 100%- perjalanan itu memang memenatkan"

speaking of this 'band', i would like to say tq to my Rx junior cum my one of my lil' sisters while i was studying in UKM, Ainul Nabihah for giving this. actually, i'm too deficient in my amal.. but it doesn't stop me for always trying to get Allah's love, forgiveness n blessings all the way.. so.. let's strive n pray for the best in our lives n the Hereafter~



therefore, i would like to tag these 10 persons to get this 'band':



- deelyn (miss u lots)

- dayah 'cahaya petunjuk'

- izzat (w/p aku tahu ko takkan buatnye.. haha)

- gg aka ibnmasir

- fadilah biomed/4 (tq sbb link blog akak pd dila.. tq tq)
- khairani

- ain shaqirah

- nora lia (saya suke baca blog nora~)
- intan aka ironbutterfly

- asdayati aka adyth



have a nice day everyone~

what the..?

watch the moon sits on the sky for a dark night,

shining for the light of the sun..

watching the stars scattering above,

while dancing happily though the million years..

b4 i start this entry, i would like to express my deepest sympathy to my friend n her family for the loss of her lil' bro yesterday. *al-fatihah*

*****

starting..

haihh. i dunno arr. why all of sudden, i feel empty, nothing, moody, n all that? where's my life purpose? should i stay being like this forever? haihh..

err.. i'm just blabbering around. it's nothing, though. currently, these are my wishlist.. haha.

1- i want to gaze upon the stars above. it's like my personal therapy..

2- i want to eat ice cream. my 'tranquilizer' above all the rest. huhu.

3- i don't want to think much as this can disrupt my sleep pattern. *sigh*

4- i want to go somewhere secluded, private, where i have my own space of imagination n freedom to think, to learn, to create, to listen, to be listened. lala.. *i guess i'm just being aquarius-like person aite? haha..*

lala.. whatever.

~~

better do this than scratching my face.. huhu

i thought i'll never blog till my condition will get any better.. but, since i'm out of antihistamines (huhu.. life sucks without them!) n i got flaky pinky scars all over my body (n face, too T.T), so.. let's do it~!

**

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: sky juice
2. Last phone call: elsa
3. Last text message: ckin aziz
4. Last song you listened to: romance - aku ingin kamu (jiwang tuu.. lagu saper nih?)
5. Last time you cried: entah, tak igt

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: never.. kaki reject agaknye saye. haha
7. Been cheated on: yep
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: never
9. Lost someone special: yep
10. Been depressed: yep
11. Been drunk and threw up: never

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. purple
13. maroon
14. white

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yep
16. Fallen in of love: dunno
17. Laughed until you cried: haha.. yep yep
18. Met someone who changed you: yep
19. Found out who your true friends were: yep
20. Found out someone was talking about you: yep

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: no
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: 85%
23. How many kids do you want?: 3-4 kids? hehe
24. Do you have any pets: no..
25. Do you want to change your name: no

26. What did you do for your last birthday: this year, byk hadiah dpt.. tq sume :D
27. What time did you wake up today: err.. tolak subuh.. 10.00 am :P
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: talking abt 'maturity' dgn farehah

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: result sem 2
30. Last time you saw your Mother: now. she's sleeping again. hahaha
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: none
32. What are you listening to right now : beyonce - halo
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: never
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: none
35. Most visited webpage : fb, animetake.com, yahoo, online newspapers.. (nak keep track dgn dunia luar.. huhu)


36. Whats your real name: rashidah
37. Nicknames: chidah, hikki, c
38. Relationship Status: single
39. Zodiac sign: aquarius (the eccentric one)
40. Male or female?: female
41. Primary School?: sk lembah keramat
42. Secondary School?: smk lembah keramat
43. High school/college?: perak matriculation college
44. Hair colour: (undisclosed)
45. Long or short: (undisclosed)
46. Height: 168-170 cm.. can't remember
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: no.. huhu

48: What do you like about yourself?: maybe.. about how different i am.. huhu
49. Piercings: none
50. Tattoos: none
51. Righty or lefty: lefty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: never
53. First piercing: while i was in taski/kindergarten
54. First best friend: cik nazrin bt zainal abidin (standard 1)
55. First sport you joined: hockey
56. First vacation: penang
58. First pair of trainers: couldn't remember

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: none
60. Drinking: none
61. I'm about to: scratch my face if i don't do this thing!
62. Listening to: The Back Horn - Wana (hah.. i always love gundam songs.. huhu)
63. Waiting on: exam result.. tomorrow will be

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: yep.. of course.. hehe
65. Get Married?: insyaAllah.. with whom, not certain yet
66. Career?: a successful pharmacist with loving family. hehe

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: eyes..
68. Hugs or kisses: err.. hugs ok
69. Shorter or taller: dun mind
70. Older or Younger: dun mind
71. Romantic or spontaneous: both! hehe
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: both? hahaha
73. Sensitive or loud: sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: both will do.. hehe

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: never
77. Drank hard liquor: never
78. Lost glasses/contacts: pernah je

79. Sex on first date: haish.. never
80. Broken someone's heart: yep
82. Been arrested: never
83. Turned someone down: yep
84. Cried when someone died: yep
85. Fallen for a friend?: not just yet~~

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: yep
87. Miracles: yes!
88. Love at first sight: no
89. Heaven: yep
90. Santa Claus: durh.. no
91. Kiss on the first date: no
92. Angels: yep

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: wow.. never
95. Did you sing today?: no
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: never.. if that bermaksud curang la
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? : 4th year please.. hehe
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: the day that all of us took pics together as pharmacy peeps~
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yep. i need total trust n loyalty b4 jumping into a relationship
100. Posting this as 100 truths? : no.. i'll post this as the topic stated inside this entry.. haha

**

ok.. bored again. haha. never mind. i'll find something to do.. while waiting for Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood ep.10 to be completely downloaded.. can't wait to watch! (dah miss 2 episod nih.. apa kes? terpaksa pecut blk download 2 episod berturut-turut..) :P

outbreaks.. huhu

err.. tak larat nak update.. tp nih jelah aku dpt buat..

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**

ok arr.. nak sambung berehat.. huhu..

*baca doa tido.. dah sumbat antihistamine yg mengantuk tuh dlm sistem.. huhuhu*

star-gazing

misah, adawiah n me~ luar suria KLCC.

hmm.. just another day. today is 13th may, which means 9 days remaining to send all the finalised hard-covered thesis dissertations plus CD-ROMs to be kept by the faculty n the supervisor. i've made my appointment to meet my sv tomorrow morning.. n hopefully after that, i can bind mine.. isk isk isk..

a day earlier, we (misah, adawiah n chidah hikki) went to celebrate misah's friend's b'day. i don't mind.. i told my parents i wanted to go out at nite with my girlfriends, luckily they didn't object (fuhh.. lega aku. cuak gak kuar mlm-mlm.. *ok, aku masih kekampungan, n aku suke + bangga keadaan aku begini. tq*). then we dined in pizza.. lala.. whatsoever, the b'day wishes, the chitchat etc. huhu.

after dinner, we went to see the 'air pancut' outside Suria KLCC. what a beautiful view at nite. :) glad i've made this far. gazing upon the buildings in KL with a feeling of relief. hehe. alhamdulillah. i hope i'll remember all these 4 years in UKM coz it meant to much to me. lessons for life..

yea. aku tuka bahasa lak. BM lak, bahasa ibunda. haha. lps tuh kitorg duduk kat tangga tuh. n then aku dah mula berangan. hampeh hampagas tul. tp best gak. aku berangan nak dpt gaji n then save utk mak bpk aku gi haji arr.. lps tuh nak saving utk adik arr.. nak contribute duit sket utk kakak aku kahwin arr.. mcm-mcm mende aku pk. tp aku lupe nak pk diri sendiri lak.

bila aku pk psl diri sendiri, aku tak tahu aku nak apa. tp mende-mende nih sure thing arr aku nak:

- freedom from grief, darkness n sorrow (which means aku nak hidup dgn aman n gembira)~

- being always grateful to Allah swt.

- love n peace all around. haha. yea. i want love plus peace. not love plus chaos. it isn't love at all.

- to be a competent yet passionate pharmacist. nak keje rajin-rajin. insyaAllah :)

- nak kahwin. hahaha gile kentang tul. calon pun takde. hahaha :P *ada unsur gatal di situ*

erM. nih lg 1. aku nak buat statement. aku single. takde istilah 'it's complicated'. takde commit or complicated friendship/relationship dgn saper-saper pun. enough said. sbb aku dah dgr mcm-mcm mende psl aku ada pape dgn saper-saper arr.. well, no strings attached. ceit. tah diorg dpt dari mana, aku pun tak tahu. yg aku tahu tuh aku tahu arr. yg aku tak tahu tuh yg aku heran. n ingin ditegaskan di sini, i'm a free female human being.. n i always am.

tuh arr.. terigt lirik lagu nih.

"we were meant to live for so much more.. have we lost ourselves?"

(Switchfoot - Meant to Be)

yea. we were meant to live, n to be for so much more. we deserve much better outcome to our own well-being.

wassalam. ok arr.. nak edit abstrak.. then nak gi reunion rumah 6C! yatta!~ :D

rain~!

siapakah mereka? hehe

apakah ini? Gundam? yea tepat sekali. :)

hari ini hari sabtu. maka, hari ini juge merupakan hari rehat bg kebanyakan org. termasuklah aku. yea rite. rehat. at last. setelah menderita sakit perut yg teramat dahsyat (smpi diarrhea 2 hari kot.. mahu bocor colon kalau lebih lama drpd tuh.. huhu) n mengharungi 2 paper dalam siri final exam (terakhir kot) sem nih.. haih.. give me a break..

haha. aku nak kumpul anime klasik kesukaan.. hehe. dah arr kebelakangan nih izzat memberikan 'bad influence' pd aku (asyik terpengaruh dgn citer yg dia tgk je.. cobaan.. hehe) -- lps tuh tiba-tiba aku tergerak hati nak cari anime-anime lama yg aku pernah tgk. hehe. tp yg nih aku baru jumpe. aku nak download sume 49 episod.. tak kire! kalau tak dpt download, aku nak serbu sume kedai DVD.. nak suh diorg adakan juge stok citer nih.. tak kire!!

** Mobile Fighter G Gundam (1994) **

(anime tahap klasik.fm. hahaha)

citernye mcm nih.. timeline masa tuh ialah Future Century (FC). masa tuh kunun-kununnye Bumi dah takleh tampung byk penduduk.. sbb dah teruk pencemarannye.. so golongan-golongan yg agak berkemampuan akan gi duk kat space colony.. so kat situ tiap-tiap negara ada colony sendiri.. mcm Jepun (Neo-Japan), Perancis (Neo-France), etc.

nak dijadikan citer, to maintain peace (supaya org tak gaduh kat angkasa lepas) --- tiap-tiap 4 tahun akan ada arr 1 tournament.. Gundam Fight. each country will send representatives to fight. ada arr syarat-syaratnye.. so.. ada sorg mamat jepun nih, nama dia Domon Kasshu, dihantar arr bg pihak Neo-Japan utk berlawan.. ditemani oleh partner dia iaitu Rain Mikamura (yea.. heroin kesukaan aku~ hehe). diorg mcm ada pape arr. tp tamau ngaku. nyampah. haha.

Domon Kasshu

tp at the same time -- Domon lawan gundam-gundam tuh bukan sbb nak menangkan Neo-Japan ke apa.. tp nak cari abg dia (Kyoji Kasshu) yg jd penyebab kematian mak ayah diorg.. sbb Kyoji nih membangunkan projek berbahaya yg dinamakan Devil (Dark) Gundam.. Devil (Dark) Gundam nih gundam yg bahaya arr.. nak musnahkan Bumi gitu..

Rain Mikamura. heroin kegemaran. hehehe

..ok, citernye spt biasa mmg mengarut. tp best!! 5 bintang aku bg.. sbb ada elemen lawak, cintan cintun, mechanics, sci-fi.. kire standard yg ok arr utk anime purbakala.. hehehe.. :P

aku nak download/cari DVD citer nih~ haha.. senarai citer yg aku nak kumpul:

1. Mobile Suit Gundam 00 (accomplished)

2. Mobile Suit Gundam SEED Destiny (accomplished)

3. Mobile Suit Gundam SEED (accomplished)

4. Mobile Suit Gundam SEED Astray (baru download Blue Frame.. Red Frame pending lg)

5. Mobile Suit Gundam Wing

6. Mobile Suit Gundam 0079

7. Mobile Fighter G Gundam (on the way)

erM.. aku dihadapkan dgn soalan-soalan pelik drpd bdk-bdk perempuan yg barangkali sama ada terkejut ataupun rasa mcm freak out dgn minat aku nih. nih jwpn aku:

kalau korg minat mende-mende lovey-dovey kind of thing, kalau korg minat mende-mende pinkish in colour, kalau korg minat mende-mende feminin.. jgn risau. aku pun minat gak. tp Gundam nih minat utama aku. so takde pape yg pelik ok. just have some respect. it's kind of.. yea, aku TAK MINAT langsung citer korea, tp aku leh respect org yg minat citer-citer gitu.. korg leh buat mende yg sama kan.. ok~ understand each other..

haha. tuh jelah.. selamat berhujung minggu~~

**

rings [nostalgic moment]

nih cincin yg aku dpt based on kuiz mengarut kat facebook tuh.

tgk mcm mula-mula tak cantik.. tp lama-lama suke lak :)

hmm. terkenang lak zaman sekolah menengah dulu. zaman bwk duit belanja RM 1.00 je ke sekolah (ini fakta ok..).. kdg-kdg makan kdg-kdg tak. depends. most of the time aku takkan makan kat sekolah. rela lagi tahan lapar, blk rumah baru melantak. haha. n duit seringgit yg aku dpt tuh biasanye aku simpan.. tp.. bkn simpan utk mende lain.. tp utk..

**main 'telur syiling'!!**

selalu main mesin telur tuh lepas sekolah. hehe. n yg plg sonoknye hari tuh, dpt 'mainan' yg paling aku sayang arr antara mainan-mainan lain yg aku korek keluar dari mesin telur tuh (aku cucuk pakai syiling 50 sen tau..).. cincin.. pergh. cincinnye takde arr tulen ke apa ke, plastik je kot. tp rupanye betul-betul mcm nih:

cantik tuh.. cincin plastik tuh betul-betul rupa mcm nih.. caye arr :P

sejak hari tuh, sampai arr aku form 5 (aku tahu mesti ramai tak perasan pun..), aku sentiasa pakai cincin tuh. cantik. hehe. entah. budget konon 'dah ada yg punye'. pergh. tak bleh blah. tp suke arr pakai cincin. mmg sayang gile. simpan dlm 'telur' dia blk lps pakai (b4 tido takkan nak pakai kot..). hurmm.

tp sayangnye cincin tuh hilang lps SPM result. terus hilang entah ke mana. penat selongkar bilik, selongkar 1 rumah. tak jumpe-jumpe. lps tuh masuk mtrk, terus lupe. skrg nih baru teringat. :)

takde apa sgt arr. penegasannye di sini: duit tuh bukan penghalang utk menikmati apa yg kita nak nikmati dlm hidup. yg penting, kalau kita nak, insyaAllah kita akan dpt. tak kire arr dlm btk apa. bg aku, cincin plastik 50 sen tuh pun aku dah cukup sayang tau. tak perlu mende mahal-mahal utk please ourselves. in a way that it will bring sentimental value to us. chewah.

(ok.. aku merepek sbb skrg bergelumang dlm cuaca panas pd tgh-tgh mlm nih..)

all the best sume.. selamat study~ :)

prototype girl (part 2)

yea.. bila buka tingkap bilik, nmpk pokok-pokok nih.. hehe.

that's why i love living in k1 :)

study week telahpun bermula. namun begitu, bg diriku -- bersediakah? whatever. cuba selagi boleh sudah..

hurm. ada 1 lg personality test yg aku buat (yg pasti: bukan dalam Facebook yea).. baru je td kwn sekolah aku (nisa bear) bg test nih suh aku buat. aku pun buat arr. sementara tunggu maghrib.. ok, tamau mengomel pjg-pjg. here's the result:

**SUMMARY FOR YOURSELF**

* Opened door = you're the person who is willing to share.

* Round/oval = any friends that come along, you will accept and trust them completely.

* Full = your life is completely fulfilled and good for you!

* Glass/clay/porcelain = you are weak in your life and tend to be fragile.

..yg lain-lain takleh arr nak publish..

saper-saper yg nak amik test nih, leh download file excelnye kat sini:

http://www.savefile.com/files/2074870

have a nice day.. evening.. nite.. apa-apa jelah.. hehe :)

cendana, clinical, gundam, me.. hehehe

mengabadikan kenangan terakhir chidah hikki

bersama Pasukan Pantun Sri Cendana

(Pesta Pantun UKM 2009.. no.4 pun jadi arr.. hehehe..)

ya.. itulah dia.. cendana dpt no.4 thn nih. apa pun, tahniah pd adik-adik cendana sekalian. masih ada ruang utk improvement pd sem dpn (tp aku dah takde kot.. isk isk isk). aku harap dpt arr keep in touch dgn sume warga cendana n juge bdk-bdk pantun dari UKM Bangi. wuuu.. bestnye era berpantun nih.. mesti aku rindu lps nih.. huhuhu.. *tp sayangnye aku sgt bz time nih. smpt gi 3 hari je match. klinikal membataskan.. isk*

clinical

err.. aku tak tahu arr. aku mmg alergi kat lecturer itu ke? pdhal aku tak takut lecturer yg lebih sarcastic n dahsyat drpd lecturer yg jaga grp aku minggu nih. isk. takpe. aku mesti buktikan diri sendiri boleh! yatta!~ (cpt arr hbs minggu ke-8.. *skrg baru minggu ke-5*)

gundam (gundam 00)

aku lambat download gundam minggu nih. bz pantun n klinikal kan. tp puas hati arr dpt tgk ep.23 pg td. tp takpe arr. ulang tayang lps hbs presentation klinikal. klinikal lagi. ceh.

me?

takde apa-apa yg menarik utk dibincangkan. aku bz dgn keje. n aku takde masa nak melara jiwa. n kurg sihat juge. aku dah mula photosensitive n sakit kepala balik. apakah tandanye? kena berjaga-jaga. tubuh badan yg diberikan nih pinjamanNya.. takleh torture tau. so kena jaga elok-elok tau :)

**

that's all. :D

p/s: ada pantun menarik yg aku dgr masa pertandingan akhir Pesta Pantun UKM 2009:

kiri jalan kanan pun jalan,

tengah-tengah pohon melati;

kirim jangan pesan pun jangan,

kalau sudi datang sendiri..

*hahaha!*

pharmacy nite - memoirs of miracle 2009

muka-muka yg berjaye dpt bunga yg byk,

dpt hadiah, n dpt melaram (w/p tak pakai costume fairytale. hehehe)

huh.. penatnye smlm. menyiapkan report, qada' tido, risau dgn pantun (tp tak dpt gi smlm.. ada hal + dinner), etc. tp alhamdulillah.. berjalan lancar gak sumenye..

by the way.. thn nih aku pakai ringkas je ke dinner Rx. shopping last minute. bz klinikal arr katakan (bak kata Dr.Mohd). haha. yep.. pemenang-pemenang costume n popular:

best costume (guy) = mcm biasa.. faris.. (bosan..)

best costume (gurl) = cik asdayati kita! pakai costume puteri dinasti ching.. cantik sgt.. (tp aku tak upload kat sini arr.. huhu)

prince serenity (senior guy popular) = shahir (yep.. sekali lagi aku rasa bosan.. durhhh.. sbb pres kelab je kot..)

princess serenity (senior gurl popular) = yuan hui~ congrats! :D

**

aku?

- dpt byk bunga. tq pd sume yg bg~!

- makanan best. esp lasagna n desert (aku suke kek coklat diorg.. sedap)

- dpt hadiah (unexpected + expected) dari dayah s (adik buddy aku) n izzat (nih mmg dia kata nak bg utk b'day aku sekali.. hehe). tq tq :D

- tak sangka org puji juge baju dinner aku yg agak ringkas thn nih (malu oiii.. thn lps gile glitter.. tak hbs malu lg.. isk isk isk)

- dpt bergambar dgn lecturers + bdk-bdk Rx/4~ hehe.. tak sabo nak tunggu CD gmbr dinner kuar.. :P

**

ok arr. nak gi tgk pantun. all the best cendana~ yatta!~